May 1997, a flu that didn’t really want to be become a flu. During my time in bed and on the couch I decided I wanted to go to college after all so I, after what seemed like an eternity (3 entíre weeks..!), went back to my temp-job and told them the good news. The non-flu kept lingering on so even my last few weeks on the job were spent at home, needless to say they couldn’t have been too sad to see me go ;(. In September school started and I managed fine the first month or so, then “it” came back and as from November on I was practically housebound, perhaps once a month crashing on a friend’s couch after a measly trip to the mall. Sore throat, feverish, “fatigued” (worst description of every cell in your body yelling NO to movement), aching bones and an indistinct pain in the centre of my head (and my dad) drove me to the doctor’s office. Blood was drawn, results came back negative aside from a possible recent mono infection, I was getting annoying. After a while he allowed me to go to the internal specialist at the hospital. Another virus, Coxsackie B, was to blame and within a year I should be up and running, sailing, shopping, learning..
The year passed silently. Fully counting on the specialist’s estimate I enrolled for a second (and next years 3rd and 4th time) in college but even trýing to go was out of the question. I spent my days on the couch, behind the computer chatting to friends or staring at the wall or TV. Bed was for nighttime only since it made my symptoms worse. And it became a family project; my mom would choose a (alternative) doctor or buy a book describing cures and we’d decide on where to go next, my dad would transport me to wherever the antibiotics, reiki or energetic healer was located. Most didn’t work or made me worse, some helped. One was SO out of the box that we giggled to each other “if you want to deceive people then come up with something less…quacky!” but it was in the next town and relatively cheap so off we headed. Those drops made my mild fever and sore throat disappear for the first time in years, but other than that things stayed pretty much the same. A real doctor with a degree and everything gave me abx for a Mycoplasma infection, which I was barely able to finish, I got so sick. Since all else had failed I went back to the hocus-pocus-lady and asked for the drops again, this time just needed Epstein Barr, and all brain-hell broke loose. For weeks I couldn’t walk a straight line from dizziness and needed a bathroom within drunk-walking distance in case of returning meals. My brain, eyes, even teeth started trembling and, since I was as sick as before and getting desperate enough to try a plan B before symptoms from a plan A subsided, I went on a thyroid hormone try-out. Which turned the trembling into a pressure that could be compared to the one you feel when you hit your thumb with a hammer, only, I hadn’t recently hit my brain. With anything. After spending some time on a forum for thyroid patients reading about the horrific symptoms that can occur, I just thought this was business as usual. When things started popping in my brain and later on my throat……I realized this was nowhere mentioned on any message board. Neither was the high feeling or the tightening of every possible muscle which made me just want to curl up in a ball. Despite, since with every pop I felt a teensy bit better, I was súre I needed to keep it going but then it suddenly stopped. Since thyroid hormones made it start in the first place I tried every kind I could get my hands on but messed things up with a simple food supplement containing kelp, for what feels like forever (those I think formerly infected nerve cells should start calling themselves Goldilocks ;0). When my thyroid levels were finally where they should be it (and to hopefully be soon!!) continued..